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I Call A Timeout

I am tired. I can feel my body saying it. I can feel my emotions saying it. Trying to “be strong” and “grind” isn’t working. I am tired. I remember when I played varsity softball as a pitcher. After a couple of bad pitches or some team error, I would be a little rattled. My…

Sitting on the Sidelines

I hated sitting on the bench during a basketball game. Seeing my teammates go up and down the court defending, running plays, missing baskets, making baskets, I wanted to be in the game. The feeling of my muscles burning and my lungs expanding as I played in the game was exhilarating. But for whatever reason,…

I Need Normal

Everything has changed. Divorce brings change. A new home, new surroundings, new furniture and dishes, routines, even the way you drive to work and through town. Everything seems changed. While we may welcome it, we need normal. I was feeling quite overwhelmed by the chaos. I needed to let the pressure out of my head…

Chaos is Normal with Big Change

I am reminded that chaos is the beginning of all change. We are breaking the molds and tearing our lives apart in some areas. We are deconstructing to construct on purpose. It can hurt. It is messy. We can feel emotional pain or loss. Our bodies start doing weird things. Chaos feels big. It is…

What Are You Rejecting?

It has been several years that I have been working on allowing good things to come to me. I am a giver. I mean I am more comfortable giving than receiving. Sounds noble doesn’t it? But it isn’t. It worked at some point in my life. Perhaps when I was raising little babies and that…

Burning Fire

Burning fire! That’s what my new beginning feels like. They haven’t felt like a fresh start. There is debris and fallout. It’s messy. I feel messy and disoriented. I feel like they should be inspirational and enlightened. A golden ray of light shines down showing me the way to my perfect beginning. That thought lasts…