I am tired. I can feel my body saying it. I can feel my emotions saying it. Trying to “be strong” and “grind” isn’t working. I am tired.
I remember when I played varsity softball as a pitcher. After a couple of bad pitches or some team error, I would be a little rattled. My focus wasn’t there. A pitchers biggest enemy is in their own head. My coach knew me. He knew I could usually bring myself back to focus, but sometimes I would get tangled. He knew that look. He would call a time out. My coach would walk slowly to the mound with a little smile on his face. Once he got to the mound, he would put his hand out indicating he wanted to hold the ball. I would give it to him. He would take the softball and rough it around in his hands and not really say much. He was giving me a minute to refocus. To calm. To lighten up. It worked. He knew I just needed a time out.
Today in life, I need a timeout. Life has been busy, fast and full of surprises lately. That has left me tired. The surprises of the last few weeks have included 4 trips to the emergency room. One for my son and three times for me. He had a broken elbow that required surgery. My momma heart was hurting for him. I was having allergic reactions to something unknown. The last time in the ER, I almost had to be intubated because my throat was swelling quickly. Thank goodness for epinephrine that stopped the allergic reaction.
The day after being sent home from the hospital, I released my first book, NOW WHAT? A Guide To Thriving After Divorce. I also recorded the audio version and showed houses to clients. It has been busy.
So today, I call a timeout. I need to catch my breath.
I am going to refocus. All the pressure has gone away for just a couple hours. I am going to write. I am going to meditate. I am going to dream. I am going to envision where I am today and where I am going. My timeout is to remember why I do what I do everyday. My energy will return accompanied by a big smile. Today, I take a timeout.
Is it time for you to take a timeout? Not to escape or give excuses, but because you need a moment to refocus and recharge?
Take a few hours, reconnect, renew, meditate, write, read, sit in nature. Connect. Take a timeout. Renew your soul.